Toni has passed and so now, in her honor, I am re-posting a post from July 7, 2011 for someone else diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer:
I remember when I first started this walk down cancer road. I was
scared. Probably just as much, if not more so, than a lot of you out
there. Both my parents died from cancer, my sister had Stage 2 triple
negative BC, and I too was diagnosed as triple negative. I remember
feeling like I couldn't breathe. I also remember my first three
words....."Oh my God"....
Surely he heard my cries because for
all the days that followed, I knew HE knew what HE was doing and that I
must trust in HIM. You have a choice with God, just as you do this
disease. You can walk with HIM/it, or away from HIM/it. I chose to
walk with HIM because as I've known all my life, I know he will carry me
when I am weak.
I also found it imperative to keep a sense of
humor. Trust me, aside from the gravity of my situation, there were also
several jokes tossed around. That and my sister's falsey tossed into
the pool...where it floated..and I laughed till I cried.
all, the days are not going to go by any faster or slower just because
you have cancer. And, I bet you will be more grateful for each sunrise
and each sunset that you get to enjoy. Take each moment as they come
whether you feel great, or not so great. Part of this whole deal is
that the treatment designed to heal our bodies actually makes us sick at
first. Just roll with it and take it as a cue from your body that it is
doing its job. That is all you can do.
When you are unsure if
you can do this and get through it, trust me - YOU can, and you will.
There are thousands of us out here, right here, sending you blessings.
We do care about YOU and your cancer and we want you to get better.
isn't perfect but sometimes our society strangely acts as if it is
supposed to be. If that were the case, we'd be in heaven already,
right?? So, don't sweat the petty stuff and don't pet the sweaty stuff.
OK, that's my thoughts, now chin up, shoulders back, smile, and breathe....it's going to be just fine. Hugs....