Right decision

Well, the last couple of days, I have been getting these awful pains in my chest. I understand that it is normal and that its the nerves trying to "re-fire" up. Dang near makes me jump out of my skin at times. After little sleep the last few days, I finally rested last night and am quite grateful to allow my body to rest. I can't wait till I am over this "exhausted" feeling....whew it's enough to wear anyone down. I'm not as thrilled as everyone else seems to be at how my breasts are healing. I find it hard to look at, but I know its only temporary, so I continue to think positive thoughts.

I am so glad I prayed hard before making my final decision because I did get "some" good news yesterday. I definitely made the right decision to do the bilateral. During the final pathology of my breast material, more cancer was discovered in my right breast where it originated. It was so small that the mammo, MRI and ultrasound missed it and it would have gone unnoticed for some time. Had I just done the lumpectomy, it very well could have been a lethal decision. Leslie (my team leader) made it a point to call me and let me know about it - so one more little miracle to make note of.....

I find that in my quiet time when I can calm my spirit to listen, that is when I hear HIM the best and understand that HE is carrying me more than I ever thought possible. I don't think I could keep a lighter side to all this if not for my faith. I have never been one to push or pull anyone as I believe that we must find the Lord in our own due time.....but if you have never witnessed a miracle, you are in the process of it now. There is no doubt in my mind that I will survive by the grace of God.